If your a family member of mine, please do not read this. MOM!!! (its personal, and I don't want you to see it.)
So this New post is something from the Heart. So if you really do not care to read something that has meaning to one person's life, I suggest you read another blog or page.
What are bad days?
According to most people I ask bad days are in massive ranges of things. One might say I broke a nail, that's a bad day. Another might say I stepped on a bug, that's a bad day. In fact another person might say I didn't go for a walk or exercise, that's a bad day. These all are bad things to those people, but to a crowd are these bad days? I like to think not, despite what those individuals say is a bad day for them. To me a bad day does not even come close to the disappointment that I mentioned early. A actual bad day can progress to a bad couple of days, maybe even a week or two. This is where it starts to get personal.
Here are my personal examples, that qualify in my life as Bad Days...
1. Mother wakes up to being raped, and I am the conceived child.
2. Dad leaves mom, because he is not man enough to live and love the right way.
3. Mom strives so hard as to work three jobs, that I call my sister/babysitter mom.
4. Mother goes through 3 marriages still not having the man she rightfully deserves.
5. When young, my mom leaves and says see is taking off, I react by ripping the board off my bunk bed. Hence smacking my mouth and getting knocked out for my first time. Result, Dental damage,blood, and I messed up my root system, otherwise would have had perfect teeth.
6. Watching my mom dance with her 3rd husband, while he pushes me away when I try and hug her. Maybe because he was drunk, not sure.
7. Waking up to the fact that most of my family is lost and without a relationship with God.
8. Hearing more stories of how my sister does/sell drugs.
9. Hearing the same about my brother.
10. Going to my sisters house and seeing the want to change, but not the will to change.
11. Seeing my sister cry her heart out for people, yet getting screwed over on a daily basis.
12. Seeing my brother everyday, while he envies me for my second chances.
13. Failure in the eyes of my mother when I make a mistake.
14. When I personally stumble and I feel guilt from sin.
15. When I get the feeling I can no longer look up and ask God if he is pleased with me.
16. When I go home from college and a friend dies.
17. When I go home from college and after a friend dies another 2 people die.
18. At the same time as above, a friend of mine gets beaten up and almost robbed.
19. Also at the same time above when my cousin and her mom get jumped at a local store and I cannot do anything about it.
20. When someone turns down the opportunity to come before Christ.
21. When I no longer feel a passion for volleyball.
I gave 21 statements of things that are Bad Days to me. I did this because I could go on for quite awhile; I am 21 so I gave one for each year I have been aged. Like I said these are personal, I will not lie to you guys, writing this made me cry. Seeing all the pain in my life can make me do that I guess. But Knowing God is there takes care of most the pain.
My point is simply this, just because one thing in your day does not go right, do not call it a bad day. Maybe you could call it a good day with one mishap. That way your not over using the words Bad Day. There are always more people who have it better and worse. I do not have it the worse nor the greatest, and with that I am satisfied that I have no other significant pains.
PS. You might ask why I didn't write about Good Days.... I did this for a reason, people in this world always let there Bad out way their good. My hope in putting my life out there is that maybe people can start focusing on the good in their lives and allow that to out way the bad in their life.
I liked how this blog was from your heart and was personal. Everyone has their share of difficult times in their lives, Bad Days; And sadly alot of people don't get over them and continue to remember the pain and hurt they felt from those experiences. Imagine a man, a perfect man who knew no sin died for all the Bad Days of you(reading this comment), me,and the who world. Thank God there was such a person,Jesus Christ.
ReplyDeleteAmen to that brother amen to that.
ReplyDeleteIt is never easy to share those kinds of things. It takes courage definitely, yet you are right that when we have Jesus it helps us through. There are good days ahead because of Him. Thanks for sharing openly!
ReplyDeleteThanks John, My hopes are that people can just see that everyone has it bad one way or another, yet there is always God to turn to.
ReplyDeleteHave you received any backlash from opening up like this?? Any negative reaction?
ReplyDeleteNo not yet, A lot of people have read and viewed this blog, but none have given me any negative feedback. Most who read it say that it must have been hard to write it for the public and others say that they don't know what to say or comment
ReplyDeleteyeah i agree, it takes alot to spill all this out, but I'm glad you did, it helps to spill out our feelings, either on paper, a blog, or just speaking our mind.
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